I keep getting this panicky feeling, like I’ve forgotten something or upset someone without realising it.  I can’t really see what I can do to get rid of it.  Usually I’m fairly serene and content, but sometimes it does feel as though I’m losing control, even if it is only for a day or two.  Maybe tomorrow will be better.

So having promised myself I’d be a better blogger, I then fail to post for a good few weeks.  I have been busy at work and so forth so I suppose I have an excuse.  I have been asked (or rather told) to do some public speaking at a couple of meetings coming up in the near future and I don’t really know why as I have quite an abject fear of public speaking.  I keep oscillating between total anxiety and a will to overpower the fear.  I’m hoping the will wins.

I have decided to give up chocolate for lent, at the suggestion of one of my work colleagues.  When I got home today, I cleared out all traces of chocolate from my cupboards and put it all in a big bag to be guarded by said colleague.  I’m actually not a big one for chocolate, so I thought it would probably be quite easy, but I have to admit I did waver when the chocolate hobnobs disappeared.  I will keep you posted on progress.

Saints lost in our local derby with the skates on Saturday.  In spite of the result, which I know they will never let us forget, the atmosphere on the day was corking!  There hasn’t been that much of a buzz around St Mary’s for many a year.  And now we have Wembley to look forward to as well.  It may be the ‘paint pot cup’ but it’s a trip to our national stadium with 44,000 friends!

An encouraging story was read in one of the dailies this morning; there are apparently now more single men than women in every age category except the over-75s, according to the ONS.  I find it hard to believe as I know barely any single men in their 30s at all.  Trust me, I’ve been looking.

In the interests of getting myself ‘out there’ (and to please my mum who suddenly began mentioning shelves recently), I have joined up on a new internet dating site.  If anyone read my blog previous to this one, they will remember that there were one or two dates as a result of my first foray into internet dating but no happy ending… I am now corresponding with a couple of seemingly nice guys, but trying to keep it casual so I don’t get too disappointed if they suddenly forget me.  I don’t know why we women do it, but we have a habit of trying to make men into what we want them to be, rather than what they are.

Right enough of the ramblings now, and time for a nice cup of tea…